this is 33
Literally every last one of my friends is married, on their way down the aisle, already has a baby, expecting their first child or working on their second child ...
And then there's me, 33 years old, a flight attendant, Snapchat connoisseur, IG boomerang lover, and super single. (What gives?)
I am so a relationship type person but in the past few years I have lost my touch! At least I feel like I have ... especially when it comes to flirting! Hard to believe, but I’m shy when it comes to the opposite sex - I just can’t form my sentences right or I’m just standing there with a big dumb cheese on my face - frozen - sooooo embarrassing – something has got to give!!! But I know, I should probably enjoy my single time before someone comes along and wants to share everything!
In other news, I am also living with an auto immune disease – one that goes by the name Lupus (Systemic Lupus Erythematous). So you can just imagine this would be a hard topic to discuss on a first date. (We will touch on this in a future posting).
You might wonder how did I know I had Lupus? Well, if you didn’t see my post on my IG two years ago Ill recap it here. I found out from waking up one morning completely numb from my neck down and my left eye blood shot red. I thought the cause was from too much working out. The feeling was so extreme & legit scary. I eventually got up for work and took several pain meds to subdue the pain. I knew something was wrong. I went to the doctor a few weeks later on November 8, 2016, and what do you know – after a few visits and lots of testing all in one day, I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Lupus. Crazy, right?
This is the day I found out I had Lupus - right after this pic. I was headed to DC when they called and I totally broke down at the airport, after I got the news.
Now, as of May 10, 2018, I am on the right path drinking 1-2 liters of water a day, continuous workout regimen, healthy diet (barely) and keeping an eye on my blood pressure. My doctors are very pleased with my results but are also very cautious with taking me off my prescribed meds so soon. (I will also list these soon).
This brings me to my why - why I decided to write this blog for all of you to read. I didn't see any of this coming ... this love drought happening – getting an auto immune disease, But God! He definitely doesn’t make any mistakes and He clearly wants me to use this blog to reach out to someone who may be struggling with coming out about their Lupus or any other type of auto immune disease. Or just losing their faith in the process.
But when do we ever see life coming? 33 is my Jesus year and I can only be positive about life right now. I'm really excited to see how this is all going to shape out and what else He has planned for my already crazy life (Bible. I need my own show).
Today is World Lupus Day and 2 years later I feel this is the perfect day and time to come out with my blog. So lets all spread the awareness about Lupus and wear your purple the month of May. You also need to get ready to join me on this ride, as I blog on relationships, food, fashion, friends and the big L word ... Lupus.
Cara Raye